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Tuesday, August 11, 2009

An update

Just to let everyone know that i chickened out at the last minute and I didn't go for LASIK so now am rich muahahaha!!! $$$$

Other than that have just been toying which a few story ideas which i have the below in progress but i definitely feel that it needs to be fleshed out more and def not so abrupt an ending. What do you think?

In the night I walk alone.

Kuala Lumpur, 12.05am

The smoke from my cigarette curls lazily into the night air, perfuming an otherwise unbearable stench emanating from the streets with their bouquet of left behind garbage, the rats raking their claws on the bags, spilling its contents on the road. I don’t help matters when I dragged upon the last of my cigarette butt and flicked it away.

My heels tap nervously as I stride upon the pavement. After all, hearing about the reports of rape, murder, women being kidnapped in the black of the night it is no wonder women are nervous even of a stranger in broad daylight.

Some would carry flashlights, pepper spray, an illegal taser or two. Some would take up self defence courses offers at community centres. Some would read the emails circulating around on what to do if you are in danger. ‘If you are in the boot of a car, break the tail light, put your hand out and wave’. Fear is always ever present. It is being in a deserted car park, having the lights switch off behind you one by one, something out of a horror movie made real.

Despite all this I enjoy the danger, flirting with my life nightly as I refused to be cowed by these reports, an insidious attempt by the patriarchy of our society to keep women in their place where they are supposedly safe. I cannot help but laugh at this as reports of abuse and incest in the homes of hundreds filter through our newspapers thus proving that danger is everywhere.  

A car comes up my side. The window slides open and a man, balding with a slight paunch asks ‘Are you lost?’ I lean through the window, smiled and said ‘For RM50 I won’t be.’

 


Monday, June 22, 2009

No more trips BAWL!!!

Great all my plans for 2nd half of 2009 shot to hell as I've decided to get LASIK which costs me RM10k!!! Am going to extremely broke... but am really happy am finally doing it as have been wanting to do it for ages plus I will get laser beam eyes and can actually give ppl killer glares... muahahahaha

Other than that just crossing my fingers and hoping that things will fall into place my way...


Monday, June 01, 2009

Starting to reclaim my life back now

OMG i can't believe it's been 6 months since I've last updated which goes to show the mad busy stressed out hectic work schedule gives me. Although i guess i shouldn't complain considering have done the following:-

Jan - Back from Japan

Feb -  S'pore Friends came to see me in KL

March - Bali

Apr - S'pore

May - Hanoi

and trying to schedule the following in future:-

June - S'pore

Jul - Nothing yet

Aug - Aussie?

Sept - HK?

Oct - Dec - Nothing as of yet

But seriously today was the day where I was going like OMG most of my work is...almost done. That is until something flares up 'unexpectedly'. So maybe i shouldn't speak so soon.

I think the problem would be that i've put so many things and people on hold that i really wonder whether i left things a little too late. I would like to rescue whatever that can be resuscitated but if it's gone... it's gone. Well here's hoping that my relationships are more resilient than i think they are.   


Thursday, January 08, 2009

Well just came back from Japan (which I went to 6 mths ago don't hate me) so some of the things were pretty familiar. Considering I was ill the entire trip which started off with body aches and slight fever to end with running nose, flam and sore throat (v v bad considering I couldn't even talk) it was fun nevertheless and I got to do some stuff I wanted to do the last time (although sadly the butler cafes were closed). But was happy to go and loved Japan so so much 

 

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Inside the todaiji at Nara

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At shibuya station

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Tokyo tower 2009

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The japanese opera house at Ginza

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Trying to be a poser japanese here

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 Shibuya (pretty much the meeting spot everyday for all MS people)

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Yummy yummy japanese food god I could eat it everyday plus it's so nice and healthy!

 

 


Monday, October 20, 2008

What beauty means to me and the pleasure derived from it

I've recently been asked this question and this is my short essay on it.

People say ‘beauty is in the eye of the beholder’; however the mark of ultimate beauty is one that appeals to everyone’s sensibilities no matter who or what they are.  

Therefore beauty can be divided into 2 things:-

1.   Physical/aesthetics

2.   Emotional/mental (what is inside)

In the physical is pretty obvious is which can be seen/ what is presented to the public. A lump of rock can be seen as beautiful in its shape/form/etc. In that sense beauty is an art of perfection, harmony and symmetry (very much like Ikebana, the Japanese art of flower arranging). In the sciences it would be seen as the simplicity and elegance an equation can solve the most complex of puzzles.

For the emotional/mental would be that certain quality coming from one who is a good person (i.e. Ugly Betty). Also something which Dove has been banging on.

Hence what can beauty be used to gain pleasure would be the cynical and the ideal version.

Physical/aesthetics

The pleasure derived from this would mainly be in the form of possession. The fact which you are able to own such a thing/person means that you are a person of means as a beautiful thing would naturally be a coveted thing by the public. Also it would be a status symbol and one that elevates you in the eye of the public.

However when you look upon a beautiful landscape, I think it always makes you appreciate that exact moment in time in which you are able to see such a wondrous sight and makes you glad that you’re alive moreover when it is something which you have always longed to see. Perhaps it goes back to having a sense of achievement.

However for personal beauty, the pleasure derived will probably be other people’s obvious want to be in your presence, the compliments given and the favors granted. In this sense beauty can be used as a bargaining chip, hence the usage of actresses and models to lend presence to any events in which their presence makes any party seem more glamorous as we assume that the beautiful would have their lives full of amazing things which they have somehow deigned their presence with us on this little social gathering.

In the end though, using your physical beauty to derive pleasure is never a good idea as beauty is fleeting. You will be replaced by another trophy wife, you will try to hold on to your youth which is quickly slipping away, you will end up like those highly botoxed women who dress 20 years younger than they should.

Emotional/Mental

Inner beauty and the pleasure derived from it seems to be two contradictory statements as a person who is truly good would not derive pleasure out of it. Happiness, thankfulness yes but not pleasure as pleasure to me is derived out of self satisfaction which a truly saintly person would not want that.

However if I were to make some sort of supposition it would be that the pleasure gotten would be the happiness reflected in that person’s eyes upon receiving some good deed be it in action or goods. It is also that sense of appreciation given by people whom you do not know or the kindness extended towards you as I believe that good people gravitate towards each other.

I guess another pleasure would be in the sense of being a savior/rescuer in which you are able to turn another person who seems to be on the road to perdition into a better soul.

Overall inner beauty is sacrificial of oneself to the other person’s benefit and whatever pleasure derived would be of other people and not yourself.    

Conclusion

Ultimate beauty is someone who is both beautiful inside and outside which is a rare achievement indeed. Studies have shown the more beautiful you are the more access and privileges are granted in which you do not need to work on your inner beauty as things easily come to you anyway. So the better option is to be beautiful inside as people who appreciate your true beauty are people worth having. So pleasure is having known you are surrounded by the people who love you just as you are.  

 



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